Sister of 2.

15 JUNE 2014, Sunday noon, sudden surprise, stories that should be told.

Another sunday of the week, feeling great because its another off day of mine after one whole week of working. This restless week of working finally bring me a good day of resting; Sunday, the Lord's day. 

8 “Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a sabbath to the Lord your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns. 11 For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.Exodus 20:8-11

today's service started on 10am, but i had reached there on 9am; an hour earlier than i ever thought. I wander off the area for breakfast, before i make a confirmation about the time of the service today i had totally forgot to take my breakfast.

After the service, i had been told my boss's phone whom rooted by me were having something wrong with it. I couldn't help onto control my daily routine even on my off day to go to my work place; but i didn't forgotten that today was the Sabbath. And the story start here.

In the mall, there are least people who truely knows what happen outside the building. They are safe from the nature, but deep down they had forgotten the time, just like man trapped in a space where time and space never change until the end of their life... How torching for the life that spend most of their limited time in a space not having any choices to get out of this space. Pitiful.

There is me, inside the mall fixing phones. And then she came in. I'm shocked. Allison, a beautiful 18 year old girl who had every little guy eyes sat upon. Her family genes are beautiful, as her eyes, faces, skins, even her body shapes would steals people hearts. In her, there are the purest child dreams about fairy tales would come true in her little mind, as so much as any others girl would want; a true love from the Prince and a happily ever after ending.

"Oppa!", she called me. As it was Sunday where by that moment I still feeling sleepy and tired. 

"Ahhh...", I yawned when I put my head towards the voice. There she was, came quite close to the counter right infornt of me as I were bowing my head down fixing phones. 

"Ohh.. hai!.." I said, not thinking she would be here in this moment. And there I saw her, with her little sister right beside her, her name is Ashley.  As I took a look upon Allison, I found that she was wearing hills and dressed nicely for her family day. And as I repeat again, they both have a beautiful genes from their family.

We go for a lunch as I haven't ate mine as she invited. We walked around, not knowing what to eat as I was considering what would be the best for her. I suggested Kimbay and both agreed. We sit down on the table, we ordered. As I love to notice every single detail of others onto how they react on every situation, I was there looking at them, recording down every single detail that makes this sisters, sharing, chit-chating, and how they eat; I'm not psycho by the way, and not weird. I grew up alone with myself, forcing myself into an independent young man as I'm now. And this happiness caught my attention. It was beautiful to say it is.

As her Dad were going home, they rushed eating what they ordered. Both of this sister pushed their plates on the table caught my attention and I react going to the counter paying the bills for them. It was a worth to see all this beautiful little details in life as we maybe not saw all this in our daily life and so I paid the bill with glad, not letting her to pay me back any single sens. She insisted on paying me back the money, and somehow she pay me back. Hahaha..

After the lunch, we parted away. She going back with her dad, I going back home for a good rest. Didn't go for the choir practice on that day. Guess the lunch took my time away, hahaha.

Happy day, happy Sunday. Until next time then.

简单的1天，突然想起你。

播放五月天的苍頡来阅读，因为这篇的感觉，是思念的。

你成为我记忆中的一份不会改变的事实，还是想对你说，没有人能够代替你在我在我心中的地位，因为你是那位非常深刻的曾经。 但现在不是我再去想太多的时候了。 : )

Fanny Eng，是她的名字，也是我的曾经。给于小说家来说，她被设定的命运是个忙忙碌碌的一生。她愿意为她的生活付出，愿意为她的人生奋斗。她知道她的生命或许坎坷，但是她却一直不放弃着奋斗。像起她，有时都想尽自己最大的本分去安慰她，能够在哪一刻让她透口气，做个深呼吸。

少年时期的她就开始面对着这个社会。有些时候，单单想起她的事情都会觉得好笑。那时吸引我的她虽然不长的与众不同，但却在不知晓的时间中遇见她；也因为她的出现，才会有我的今天。有位全能者，安排了她的到来，使我爱上聖乐，越发向往聖洁。也就在那段时间，我找着了生命的盼望。

曾经我那么说过，她是不可能被任何人来代替。没想到这句话真的应验了。没有人能够代替你的曾经。也没有任何人能够挪去你所留下的一切。最近跟你见面都让我不尽的怀念当初的感觉。那份傻傻的爱情。为你流泪过，也为你祷告过。在这么多年后多还能找会那份感觉，谢谢你，有些时候能这样就够了。就已经很满足了，满足了当时的欠缺与来不及。

不望什么爱情从来，只想怀念过去有你的时候。明天会更好，明天会更明。

睡梦中的我，被友人偷拍下来，也在这时刻，是想你的

晚间的梦游，游荡时分

走着走着，一个人走在商场里，看着一对一对的人在身旁走过。穿着情侣衣的他们，系牵着对方的手，显露出幸福的样貌。还记得我的当初是充满着惊奇，也存粹因为着可以与她同聚而快乐，没有想多，也没有太多的顾虑，是多么的开心着。幸福的孩子，开始着他幸福的梦。甜蜜与心酸都让他长大了。不断的找寻，下一个幸福的到来，或许只是想找个人代替了当初她离开所留下来的寂寞。

爱情，它可以是个无尽的无底坑，但却非常的浅。看清的人们，往往都能轻易的上来。看不清的人啊，只愿一辈子停留在那个坑中，不想要出来。或许我也曾经那么傻过，像个孩子般，不要出来，将自己沾满了一身迷惘的泥巴。像个小孩般，固执的不要出来，直到哪天真醒了，才肯愿意回家。回家的那天以后，就不再回到泥巴中；也意味着孩子长大了。但这段长大的时间到底需要多久呢？５年吗？６年呢？还是１０年吗？看回从前，或许傻了点，但当初是那么的开心。

如果一个人的伴侣，是跟那个人相识的，或许拥有着一些同样的信仰，同样的信念，思考，想法，个性但却不同的性别，那我的这个人到底会是个怎么样的人呢？寻找的旅途中都还没有遇到过。真的有些时候，等待与顺服是必要的。不管是找伴侣，还是任何事情，相信有一天神会预备好给我们。

或许有些时候，我们会因为厌倦了等待而尝试带出一个与你相像的伴侣出来，可是到最后我们往往会发现后悔的还是我们自己。因为许多时候我们会把另一半变的不再是他们自己而成为了自己的倒影；甚至有一天自己都会开始害怕着自己所培育出来的。爱，要因为他的不同但却不要因为她的不足而改变她。因为强求他人的命运，对他人和自己都没有幸福，也没有祝福。最后换来的只会是心酸与刑法。

看开一点吧，就这样给自己说。如果你没有任何的寄托，没有前方的指引，那就听吧。因为主耶稣说过，我就是道路，真理，生命，若不接着我没有人能到父那里去。【约翰福音４：１６】

人罪恶的本性，魔鬼的试探，是多么的可怕。

红色试探的梦
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红暖暖的房间，装饰着一切暖情的摆设，充满着淫荡的气息，是魔鬼在人的心中最大的试探，是人罪恶本性的流露。如此般深刻的梦，足使神的子民跌倒堕落。回想起来这梦，实在是可怕。因为落入魔鬼的圈套，便使上帝的子民与神隔绝，与神隔绝的儿女，是多么的可怜－因上帝的无视才是人最可怕的审判与刑罚。一个被放纵的孩子，没有任何管教，显露出自己在危险的环境，也失去了保护。求神怜恤我这软弱的罪人。

罗7:18 我也知道、在我里头、就是我肉体之中、没有良善．因为立志为善由得我、只是行出来由不得我。

罗7:19 故此、我所愿意的善、我反不作．我所不愿意的恶、我倒去作。

罗7:20 若我去作所不愿意作的、就不是我作的、乃是住在我里头的罪作的。

罗7:21 我觉得有个律、就是我愿意为善的时候、便有恶与我同在。

罗7:22 因为按着我里面的意思。〔原文作人〕我是喜欢　神的律．

罗7:23 但我觉得肢体中另有个律、和我心中的律交战、把我掳去叫我附从那肢体中犯罪的律。

罗7:24 我真是苦阿、谁能救我脱离这取死的身体呢。

罗7:25 感谢　神、靠着我们的主耶稣基督就能脱离了。这样看来、我以内心顺服　神的律．我肉体却顺服罪的律了。

“神的儿女们应当怎么样胜过试探？”

答案是须知人本身的罪性是何等的大与可怕，明白自己是个软弱卑微的受造物，

虽有神的形象样式但却要清楚个人已经是堕落的罪人，这是个事实也是无法改变的。

个人本身是无法靠着自己得胜罪恶，因为人从始主犯罪后就已经是个罪人，留下那罪恶的律。同时也保留着神起初创造之时所留下，那知神性，那圣洁的律。

私欲怀胎，就生出罪来，罪所结的果子，乃是死。

因着明白这些事，

个人就当回到上帝面前，深深的认罪悔改，

为着自己过往极大的罪恶是多么大大的得罪神回到上帝面前痛苦流泪，

并从今往后靠着上帝丰丰福福的恩典靠着圣灵大能过着得胜而且是荣耀神为主的生活－因为人被造的终极目的，为的是要荣耀神。这也同时成为个人的神面前的见证。

因为信徒的见证若不将荣耀归于神，若不是述说神怎么在信徒的生活中使他们认罪悔改，顺服谦卑回到上帝的面前，尊祂为主尊她为王，并愿一生恭恭敬敬在祂至圣的面前无论何时都将荣耀归于祂。感谢主。

人蒙蔽的眼睛，只看见以自己为义或以社团自己的利益来行。因为最小的罪，也拥有着最大的破坏性。求主怜悯。

沫沫与书呆-他们的故事(转载文章)

2014年5月31几分钟发生太多事情，原来我还是不能释怀，但是当我写着故事，我突然明白你的感受，也不知道对不对，这是我的部落格，嘿嘿！也是一个书呆跟泡沫的故事，一个礼拜更新两次噢！所以不会很吵的，嘿嘿！

书呆独白：很多时候社会和人与人之间的感情都是很现实的，就比如说都没有过特殊经历和考验的两个人，是很难抵挡得住时间和距离一样，因为人都需要彼此满足彼此的需要。在喜欢人的面前，在时间和地点以及未来，以及自己能真正给予什么，一切的一切都不确定的情况下，自己不想做出任何承诺和说太多关于自己的事情，或者了解更多，以及彼此都互相走进彼此的世界。因为自己不想轻易把一个人当作记忆，否则一辈子都不会忘记....从不打没有准备就绪的战斗，否则这些都会成为影响到彼此生活和前进的关键因素。习惯了独自生活的我，还暂时不希望和不习惯这时候有人走进我的生活和内心， 总有一天我会为了那个人而再次改变，但是现在还不是时候。

以后的事，以后再说吧....   

 泡沫独白： 你永远不会知道，每一次的守候，都是精心安排的相遇和陪伴。每一次看见你一个人独处而抑郁不住心理压力难受，以及独自强忍着心中泪水孤独的时候，自己虽然不知道说什么，但是一直都会默默陪伴在你的身边，直到最后一刻。

有的时候，最好的安慰就是来自那无言的陪伴....晚安。 

 作者：有时候需要的是那么一点点沟通，不一定分开就是糟糕的，当故事人物懂得对方所需，也许就是需要时间，金城所致金石为开，好的东西值得慢慢去看透，等待，如果太匆忙只会留下后悔 。