No ones know how you feel....

No ones know how you feel.... They just think you are okay...

July 21, 2012
hey! how are you today? you doing fine?
how you doing today?
ei? What's that? you said you okay? good! i am happy to hear that! : )


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But i am not... and you can't see it while you are just around....


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It's Prince night (program of my youth)!!! yeaaaaaa....


But to tell the truth, i am not excited at all. Before the night, my sis called me. She told me she was coming home and wanted me to fetch her at airport. I enjoyed the talk with her last night. We talk and we shared about what we know in our faith, and she listen to me when i talk about something that has been bothering a few months ago. I am not going to talk about what's bothering me for these few months, so i will go on with what happen and how i feel today.

Yes, i had been emotional before the youth starts. and yeah, i didn't go to fetch my sis. For some reason, when i heard my mum says she want to go Kuching festival, i give up the thought to fetch my sister. The only reason is that ---- i don't like crowded places and... all you can do over there is EAT @.@



and so, i select to go to youth. By losing my invitation paper and due to my short memory, i totally FORGET what's the actuall time. (Sad Truth ---> me short memory) And so! when 博爱and Joseph inbox me "c ya" and "got to go liao" in facebook, i know it's going to start soon and guess what.... turn up, i end up there early by an hour @@



Anyway, but there is something that i really want to say. On the way to church. i found that my car was almost out of petrol! @@ Walao! i was so panic when my car shaked all the way to the petrol Station ( Thank God the Petrol Station is just a few mile away!) And the amazing thing happend.



The car out of petrol "zhun ZHUN!" at the petrol station and it is just beside the filling station!!!And i really thank God that i didn't choose to fetch my sister. ( probably will end up i am the one pushing the car all the way to petrol station and i can imagine how far i could be! @.@ )

( this photo was taken at my youth day at 7/7/2012, with Joseph Yuo, and Brandon Ling )
Both of them are pretty cute, hehehe! i used to stick around with them in Youth! :DDD

Two of them are humorous when they hang out together. Just like brothers! hahaha XDD
i hope i can be like them, but ermmm.... i guess i will just be myself! hehehehe.


ANYWAY! by God grace, my wallet left RM 16 and was enough for me to go to church and go back. and i REALIZEd i reached early when i DIDN'T saw any car at the parking lot.



i Reached Church by 6.18pm. and so, i cleaned my car (roughly) with the player on. and i really enjoyed the songs. i really do : )



after a while, i lift my head up to the sky. At that sudden moment, i felt touched! the reason why i liked Eagle so much is because i found that my character are so much alike with an Eagle. I know that God had granted me wing to Soar ( Evangelical vision ), sharp claws and peak ( The knowledge to defend the truth ), and a Sharp vision to find the prey. ( to find and spot the lost soul and the needed one[ which is someone who sat alone and waited for someone to talk to them and not that obvious to be spotted ] ) and for that moment, i cried and give thanks to God.

The youth start, and i felt a bit of uncomfortable just because the Princess are going to say something that make me feel blush and shy again. I really don't know what to react. In the end, i end up being crazy and kept on talking -.-

The WORST part is the game. I found that i felt hatred for the games. It's not because the game is good, but i just don't like the situation that everyone is SCREAMING. It HURT MY EARS! and... it reminds me, how unmature i am when i was younger. and i DON'T WANT to go back to that time again ever....

And i really felt tired.

Before the youth start, with lousy skill ( and i don't know how to play piano ), i played the song “无论何处去”by 唐崇荣牧师. The song had always gives me great comfort. :')

I want to soar in YOUR grace O Lord. i seek for YOUR presence and YOU to lead my life for i know that there is nothing more worthy for me in my life, neither work, academy, knowledge, social, friends, nor relationship. Jesus Christ had die for me and everyone of us on the cross and grant me, and us the salvation and eternal life after death. HE died on the cross because HE love us,and REVIVE after 3 days, and had VICTORY over the death! HE came to this world. HE, a God came to this world which HE created , and became a MAN just to die for our SINS on the CROSS so that God's wrath will not fall upon us, but on HIM alone. and HE grant us this salvation with only one condition.


BELIEVE! believe that Christ died for us on the CROSS and as our saviour and the Lord of our life.


Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. ( John 14:6 )

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. ( John 3 :16 )


ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS BELIEVE!

hahahahahaha, i take this picture while waiting for the youth to start~ ( and just for fun kay~ XDD)

( look scary? hahahaha, just playing xDDDD )





OKAY! time for to end this blog! i hope you enjoy reading! for i enjoy viewing the great sky, and posting the Photos! hahahah :DDDD